Chapter 116

Chapter 116

Britt’s POV
Couple of weeks went by, I thought everything was going well but i find myself more and more tired each day, and sidney is never home, and i get it, he has hockey, but when he is home he never helps with aiden, or does any house work, and he has never been that kind of guy not to help out, and he has been really busy with hockey, and in a couple of days he going on a two weeks road trip, and i don’t know if i can do it, and he been driving me crazy lately, not just the not helping thing...........okay just the not helping thing. But i guess i am to blame for a little of it, because lately more in the last week, when he comes home, i just don’t talk to him, I don’t know why. I love him, i love talking to him, late talks are one of my favorite thing we do. i just don’t know what to say without freaking out on him.
Also, i’m not saying that he doesn’t pay attention to Aiden, which he does, he plays with him all the time, and Aiden loves it he always smiling, and giggling with sidney. Sidney is so good with him. Its just he never helps.
Sidney came home after practice. i was in the kitchen finishing the dishes.
“hi babe” he kissed my forehead.
“hi” i said
“is this today’s mail?” he asked, picking up the stack of bills on the counter.
“yeah”
“where Aiden?” he asked
“i finally got him down for a nap.”
”i’m going to down stairs, to workout a little.” “didn’t you just get out of practice?” i asked
“yeah, i’m just working out one time a week now.” he said, walking downstaris
“okay” i said, turning around running my hands through my hair, then letting the water out of the sink. i let out a long breath. then Aidem started crying, i grabbed the monitor, and went upstairs.
Later that night, i finished dinner. Sidney was in the living room, playing with Aiden,
“Sidney dinner done.” i said walking in the kitchen,
“okay,” he said, standing up, and putting Aiden in his bounder. We got our food I sat on the couch, and sid sat in the chair.
“its good” he said
“thanks” i said, we sat there in silence, with the tv on, and watching kicking a waving his arms, at the toys above him. We just sat, if he didn’t know something was wrong, he must be blind.
I put Aiden to bed. Sidney was still downstairs, I went and changed. I climbed into bed.

Sid’s POV
I turned off the TV, and all the lights, locked the doors. i went upstairs. i looked in Aiden’s room all the lights were out but a nite light in the corner of the room. I walked in. i looked down at him. i covered him more with the blanket. I walked in our bedroom, Britt was reading.
“he’s out” I said
“yeah” she said, I went in the bathroom, and started the shower.
I don’t know what’s been up lately, but Brittany and I never talk anymore, and i try to talk to her but she gives me one word answers. we don’t even talk about how day went anymore. its not like when we first got married and we fought all the time, we don’t fight, we just don’t talk. and we are both really busy, but i don’t know what’s going on.
I got out of the shower. i run a towel through my hair. i put a towel around my waist. I opened the door.
“Britt, what’s going---” I looked up, and she was out cold. book on her lap. I smiled, i love when she falls asleep reading. I took the book off of her lap, set it on the night stand. i pushed back her bangs, and kissed her forehead. “i love you” I whispered, then turned off her side table lamp.
The next morning, I got up Brittany was still sleeping, I check on Aiden, he was still sleeping too. I was getting ready to leave Brittany rolled over, she opened her eyes, and looked at me.
“hey” i said
“hi” she sat up,
“i got practice in an hour.” i said, she nodded.
“ i’m gonna go check on Aiden.” she said, getting up and walking out of the room. she came back with Aiden.
“i just checked on him, he was sleeping.” I said, she laid him, on the bed.
“hey bud” i sat down next to him. i pushed his hair back. I kissed his forehead. “i got to go” I looked at Britt
“okay.” she said, I stood up, and i put my hand on her cheek, i kissed her. “bye”
“bye” i said I walked downstairs, something was still up with her. I just know what to do. I went to practice. I’m not the one to be off my game, but i couldn’t stop thinking about Brittany. I got home, I walked in the living room. Aiden was in his bounder.
“hey buddy” I kneel down and grabbed his hand. “where’s mama?”
“Britt?”
“in the dining room.” i got up, i walked in the dining room. Brittany was wiping off the table.
"he"’ i kissed her.
“hi” she said
“umm..” i looked at her. “can we..talk?” I asked
“about what?” she asked
"us." I said , she looked down. " we never talk anymore , a husband and wife, are supposed to talk, and that all we ever did, it’s not normal"
"I know."
"well we don't--"
"you don't think I know that." she said
"well why don't we-- "
"maybe it has something to do with the four month old in the living room, and hockey." She said
"whoa, what--"
"Sidney you never help." she said looking at me.
"help with what?"
"really." she raised her eyebrows "Aiden, even housework"
"I help." I said putting my hands on the back of a chair.
"no you don't, Sidney I do everything feed him, change him, give him a bath, I get up in the middle of the night with him. Not saying that I don't love them things, because I really do." she said
" but I'm tired, all I want to do anymore is sleep. One good night that all I want."
"I help, I've changed, and feed him."
"when the last time?" she asked
"umm... " I looked at her," maybe I don't know the last time, but I help."
"Sidney, you’re either, at hockey, or just playing him, and I love when you play with him, it's so cute., but I need more, I need help."
"what do you want me to do, quit hockey?"
"no Sidney, get real , hockey doesn't bother me, it has never bothered me. Just when your home, help, often to change him. Feed him, get up a two in the morning. "
" I can't believe you’re putting this all on me." I said
"I'm not putting it all on you. "
"yes, you are."
"Sidney." I looked at her, "I know you, and I know you never meant not to help, you care about your family, and hockey, I also know I've always told you to put hockey in front of me, but it's different now, we have a family."
"even when you told me to, I have never put hockey in front of you, and now you and him." I said "now your saying I don't care, Brittany.... How.... How could---"
"no, Sidney I didn't mean it like that--- crap." she said walking up to me. Grabbing my hand, I pulled away, and turned around.
"I'm going to Marc's." I said
"Sidney, Sidney." She called. I walked out.

Britt's POV
he walked out the door.
"shit." I said, I just made something bad, worst. I said that his doesn't put his first first over hockey, by saying that he puts his family first. I'm such an idiot. Which I mostly likely one of the wrist things for a man to hear that he doesn't care about his son, and I never meant to say that I know he, cares about us. And he loves aiden. What did i do?
That night, I put Aiden to bed. I went downstairs, and putting dishes away. i picked up a plate and it slipped out of my hand. I crashed on the floor.
“fuck” i whispered. i couldn’t take. I sat down at the kitchen table, and just started crying. i’m so mad at myself. I tried calling Sidney, he would answer. i wiped my eyes. i looked at the floor, at the broken plate. I got up, i picked up the pieces throw them away, and wiped off the floor. I washed my hands. I dried them, then turned around, and jumped, sidney was standing in the doorway.
“Sidney” I said
“i don’t want to talk to you” he said
“honey, please”
“no, i’m sleeping on the couch.”
“Sidney, you never sleep on the couch, when we get into a fight.”
”well, I really don’t feel like talking to you.” he said, getting a bottle of water out of the frig.
“Sidney, can we just talk about it you leave tomorrow, and you’re going to be gone for two weeks. ” I said
“i don’t want to, i still can’t believe what you said.”
“Sidney, i didn’t mean it, i came out wrong.” he shook his head, and walked out of the kitchen, and up the steps. few minutes later he came back down stairs, in his boxers, and a shirt. He laid on the couch, and turned on the TV. I went upstairs. i checked on aiden. Then went to bed. About three in the morning, Aiden woke up, I walked in his room, I turned on the lights. I pushed my hair behind my ear.
“hey buddy” I picked him up. I grabbed a binky, i sat down in a chair. i looking down at him. i gave him the binky, he grabbed my hand. i smiled “oh.....you look so much like your father.” i said he looked up at me. “oh Aiden screwed things up with daddy right now.......i know he loves you, and cares about you......i just wanted some help” i said, staring at the floor. “Daddy, was right he always did put me first before we had, even when i told him not to.” i looked at Aiden. “he never does listen.” i laughed “but i guess that one of the things i love about him.” Aiden eyes were getting heavy. “and, don’t you ever forget, that your daddy loves you no matter what, so do I.” i said, and he was asleep. I smiled. I stood up, and laid him down in his crib. I covered him up. I turned off the light, and went back to bed.

Sid’s POV
“and, don’t you ever forget, that your daddy loves you no matter what, so do it” Brittany said, I heard Aiden crying, and i went upstairs, but Brittany was ready in there. His light went out, i went around the bend. I heard her walk out. I went downstairs. Maybe i was a little rough on her, and maybe i haven’t been helping as much, but i didn’t notice. but she was still applying that i didn’t care.
The next morning, I woke up.I sat up “ahhh, maybe the couch wasn’t the best idea.” I said sitting up. I heard Aiden giggling in the kitchen. I got up, and walked out to the kitchen. Aiden was in his bounder on the table. sucking on his hands. I grabbed his hands “ahh....good morning, Aiden” i kissed his cheek. Brittany walked in the kitchen from the dining room. she stopped and looked at me.
“when are you leaving?” she asked
“noon” i said
“okay”
“umm..... i don’t know” she said, i looked at her. “want some breakfast?” she asked
“sure”
We ate. I finished packing. after i brought my suitcases downstairs. Brittany was feeding Aiden.
“I should get going” I said
“okay” she stood up, and handing me aiden.
“hey bud, i’m gonna miss you” i kissed his cheek, i handed him, back to Britt. i looked at her. “i love you” I said, she looked up.
“I love you.” i kissed her. she smiled
“bye”
“bye”